It has been quite a while since an entry here

and back then (March 2020)

even the entries were putting off talking to YOU.

Yes, talking to YOU is NOT showing off

(Here, look what I found.. what I think is important).

Talking to YOU  is what is important to me

in the solitary, apophatic, zen ish sense of silence 

which comes upon me

as I choose to think or to say, or to do 

the most real

thought, word or act which I can;

the act of dying to YOU,  

(like a doctor for his patient)